Night Is My Companion by Mara Jade Potter

Rating: PG
Genres: Romance
Relationships: Harry & Hermione
Book: Harry & Hermione, Books 1 - 5
Published: 22/07/2004
Last Updated: 22/07/2004
Status: Completed

Second Part in the Surfacing Series. Harry's thoughts about Hermione on his way to face
Voldemort. Inspired by the song Possession.




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All usual disclaimers apply. This is Part Two of the Surfacing Series, based on Sarah
McLachlan’s song “Possession”. Lyrics will follow...this is Harry’s POV.

Night Is My Companion

There I stand, staring at her, watching the tears drip from her cinnamon pools onto the damp
ground, wishing I could run over and wipe them away. To hold her close to me, and breath in every
part of her. Does she even know that she is my oxygen? That she is my angel in disguise, the most
secret desire of my soul?

I stop and smile at her. My brown-eyed beauty, my intoxicating bookworm. And her chin trembles
as I say, “I’ll come back to you, Hermione.” She nods slightly, but I can see she doesn’t
understand. She thinks I mean that I’ll come back in one piece. I’ll come back the savior, the
conqueror, the champion. That’s not it at all. And I want to explain it to her.

I mean I’ll come back to her and only her. To my darling, my angel, the keeper of all the pieces
of this shattered heart. That, throughout so many betrayals, so many years of searching, I found
the truth in her. In her sweet, soft smile, in her tender eyes, in her bushy curls. I found the
truth of purpose of my life, not in some silly prediction, but in her. In her funny intellectual
riddles, in her sweeping rhymes and spells. I found my stability in her symphonic voice, in her
silly study schedules and ridiculous causes.

But I don’t. I know she’ll never be the one in my arms, she’ll never see me that way. And now is
not the time to confess. I have a job to do.

So I walk away into the night, my companion, my only friend now. The wind blows and sings a song
of solitude, a melody of unrivaled despair. I must go alone. I must face my destiny. And it is not
the darkness that I mind, the night that is so comforting, so fitting for this battle. It is the
morning light that I dread, when I shall have no more reasons to lie to her. I shall have no more
reasons to save myself the pain of rejection that I’m so sure will come.

I walk until my muscles scream in agony and my feet blister and pop and ooze. I walk until my
pulse has tripled and my legs quiver beneath me. I walk and all the while, I never go one moment
without thinking of her face. I think of the curve of her jaw, the graceful arch of her neck. I
think of her amber aura and her freckled nose. I recall her cheekbones and her earlobes and her
eyebrows and her chin. And when I’ve recollected every detail so vividly that she could be standing
next to me, I start all over again.

The brush scratches my arms and the insects swarm around my head, but I am lost inside of my
waking dreams of her. I am not journeying through the woods on my way to possible death-- I am
ravaging her pink mouth with my own, entangling our limbs and whispering loving words in her ear.
Nothing stands between us here; there is no Dark Lord, no death, no destruction, no war. I am
twisting my fingers in her hair, wrapping my arms about her waist, pressing my cheek against her
head. And that is where I want to be forever. How could I be there forever and not be
satisfied?

And suddenly, I’ve arrived. There are swirling cloaks and sinister masks, and men shouting and
swearing and attacking. And I see my allies throwing curses and falling in battle and taking out
those enemies that are not my destiny. But the whole time, I am thinking only of her, envisioning
her in my mind. I am making my way to the evilest fixture of all, and then we are dueling. We are
dodging in and out of the crowd, throwing curses and shields and hexes. And I am hearing her
words.

‘Dodge here, Harry,’ she says, or ‘Throw this hex at him’ or ‘Don’t forget to wave your wand
this way.’

And her words echo and resonate in the air, and they keep me alive. They keep me sane and in
love and brave. And before I know what’s happened, I’m screaming a curse and my wand is flashing
green and Voldemort is dead at my feet. And I look at him grimly and immediately turn around and
start walking back to her.

And my allies are stunned, I can tell. Stunned that I do not rejoice or announce it or dance or
cry. They are unable to realize what I’ve known for so long-- that the Dark Lord was merely one
more obstacle blocking my real fate...Hermione. And now he is gone. Gone, and can keep me from her
no longer.

And when the truth sinks in, I am laughing. I am laughing and shouting and running as fast as I
can. I am no longer tired, I am no longer bitter, I am no longer misunderstood or alone. I am
racing back to her. I am willing to risk my heart, my ego, my life, just to see her and hold her
and kiss her so hard that I take her breath away. Even if only for that one instant, I know my life
will be perfect then.

‘I’m coming back to you, love,’ I think. ‘I told you I would.’

And I keep running.

Author’s Notes: Lyrics to Possession

*Listen as the wind blows from across the great divide*

*Voices trapped in yearning, memories trapped in time*

*And night is my companion*

*And solitude my guide*

*Would I spend forever here and not be satisfied*

*And I would be the one to hold you down*

*Kiss you so hard*

*I’ll take your breath away*

*And after I’d, wipe away the tears*

*Just close your eyes, dear*

*Through this world, I’ve stumbled*

*So many times betrayed*

*Trying to find an honest word*

*To find the truth enslaved*

*Oh, you speak to me in riddles*

*And you speak to me in rhymes*

*My body aches to breathe your breath*

*Your words keep me alive*

*And I would be the one to hold you down*

*Kiss you so hard*

*I’ll take your breath away*

*And after I’d wipe away the tears*

*Just close your eyes, dear*

*Into this night I wander*

*It’s morning that I dread*

*Another day of knowing*

*Of the path I fear to tread*

*Into the sea of waking dreams I follow without pride*

*‘Cause nothing stands between us here*

*And I won’t be denied*

*And I would be the one to hold you down*

*Kiss you so hard*

*I’ll take your breath away*

*And after I’d wipe away the tears*

*Just close your eyes...*



